almost a year

finally, I can get my internet connection after been almost a year here in Lala Land. Maybe it's not that fast but it's better than nothing.

Quite much things happened in my marriage life. I figured it out that it's not easy. All I was thinking about my dream marriage in bullshit. It's not a fairy tale after all. We finally see that it's not about me and you anymore, it is US.

Also there are lots of things with in-laws. New house, new family, new rules. But I have principle "rules are meant to be broken" Hahahahahahahaha, I still have my rebel soul deep down.

A week ago, I really in my lowest point, I'm angry at myself, hubby, even Jesus. I was mad because of my condition. I don't like it, I don't like it here. People said that home is where your heart is, but mine isn't here. I do love my hubby and wanna be with him, but sometimes my ego wins the battle.

I was disappointed that my marriage is not perfect. Hey, everyone is not perfect. So welcome to the club. Friend told me that whether is perfect or not, what inside your heart and soul are matters.

Same like happiness, it depends on your mind and your heart. If you can enjoy life, you will be happy thou you have nothing else but love. Yup, love. You have someone to love and love you all the rest of your life, be happy and I'm lucky I have him as my hubby, my partner and my soul guard.

I'm still learning, life is a process. All I have to do is just sit back and enjoy the process.

Guess it is enough for now. Dun worry coz I have my connection already, so I will try to put some words of my complexity life in Lala Land.

Nitey