yup! I can't believe that we are in our first year of marriage. So Happy Anniversary for both of us.
In this first year, there're so many things happened. good ones, great ones and the best ones, also not to forget the bad, the worse and the worst! I've been faced with the reality that my hubby is not that perfect. I've been disappointed with that fact and I'm angry, or I can say "furious". I was at the "I hate you" phase. I were regretting this marriage. We fight all the time and mostly I threaten him by leaving for good. The "baby" thing also bother me so bad. It stressed me out. Since it's been a year and there's no baby in progress. Also he has no intention for trying or doing something. I'm the one who try everything. Go to the doctor, drink the meds, drink chinese meds, the pregnancy milk, everything. I saw him like he doesn't want to have any kids. Boy, I really hate him at that time.
At this first year, I also bothered that we still have nothing to call our own. Like our own house or our own business. I'm shocked since this is not like I imagine before. Maybe I was expecting too much of this marriage, him and everything.
At this moment, I'm trying to face the realities and accept them all. I'm trying to accept the way he is, how imperfect he is. That's what we call marriage, right?
I wish on our second year of marriage, we can be more stable and maybe baby on the way *amen!*
Bao, thou I hate you so much but I still in love with you each and everyday! Happy 1st Anniversary.
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